Life can be stressful. That's just how it is. Your stressed, it passes (usually), your stressed again and so on. Doesn't it just seem like trials seem to come in multiples. Well, it's been our turn and i'm not sure we're finished. I don't want to complain. We have SOOOOO many blessings that we're grateful for. Here's a little of what life has thrown at us these last two months.
Nick was told often by his manager that he'd probably be layed off simply because his manager didn't like him. It got to the point where nick was feeling so harrassed by how inappropriate his manager was being he went to HR. So, he made the plan to go back to school, which i fully support. Getting adjusted to a school schedule, studying, and homework has been a little stressful. I know (hope) we'll get used to it soon once we figure it all out. The really stressful part of it all is how to feed our family and pay the rent. We know he'll find something it's just hard waiting.
Landon has thrown us for a loop. First i must say that i love him! He is so smart, funny, and loving. He really is. It's just that at times this other side comes out. I often wonder if this is really my child acting like this or if some substitute has filled in for the moment. I think he's acting out because of all that is going on in our life as well as a severe lack of sleep. i'm not sure. I have felt at times that i'm failing as a mother. All i've ever wanted to be is a good mom. I read everything i can find and am constantly asking for advice but nothing seems to work so far. After having a wonderful chat with Karina today i've realized i'm not a bad mother. I'm honestly trying my best. Hopefully we'll get past this sooner rather than later. i just hope that either way Landon will grow up knowing that his mom loved him no matter what.
The most trying thing to happen was last week when my mom had a stroke. She's had small stroke's before but nothing like this. When she got to the hospitol she had bleeding in her brain on the right side which caused peralysis on the left side of her body. It was difficult for the whole family. Especially my siblings who live far away. Elaina flew in from Utah the next morning but Lorin wasn't able to. We kept him updated by phone. The bleeding stopped and they moved her out of the ICU the next day. She was doing so well, that the day after that they moved her to the rehab center. I know that all the prayers that were being said for her made all the difference. I definately gained a stronger testimony of prayer through all of this. Tomorrow it will have been a week and she is doing so well. So well in fact she'll be coming home tomorrow. Yay!! We are so excited! There is still a long road ahead but she's pretty amazing. I just love her!!
I know we grow after going through trials but that doesn't really make it any easier to go through them. I guess its nice to know this too shall pass. I really don't think it's coinsidence that quite a few conference talks in the last year have focused on trials or hard times. Don't we all have something at some point? My next post is going to have to be 50 things i'm grateful for.
